I was...

sorry about the sad girl picture-- trust me, complete opposite of what im feeling at the moment! :)
my girlfriend made me sooo happy today! she's damn hilarious! everyone should have a girlfriend like her! Oh but don't get me wrong... i ain't sharing! haha! anyways, i was checking her blog and i came across her 'copied questions entry' and decided to copy it-- yes, babe.. i am a copycat! I love you boobiiieee!! I love you my tipsy woman! Mwah, mwah mwah!

1. Yourself: what am i? deliriously happy!

2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend? booooobieee, babyy, bay, twinnieee, tink, s... pusssyyy hahaha!

3. Your hair: getting longer but i think i wanna trim it

4. Your mother: my best friend and worst enemy :)

5. Your father: my dad's old school cool

6. Your favorite item: my laptop and call cards

7. Your dream last night: quite abstract--

8. Your favorite drink: vodka tonic and beer

9. Your dream car: a black porsche

10. The room you are in: living room

11. Your ex: who???

12. Your fears: i don't think of them.. i live!!

13. What you want to be in 10 years: rich, famous...with my babyy and our cute little golden retrievers :) oh yeah and a we have to have a house too! a modern one!

14. Who you hung out with last night: my painter who's painting my room gray

15. What you're not: poser

16. Muffins: huh? muffins what? i like muffins! i think?

17: One of your christmas wish list items: well, i think i'd want a... nice white rug

18. Time: nighttime

19. The last thing you did: talked to my best friend

20. What you are wearing: brown sleeveless top and my army fox shorts

21. Your favorite weather: a breezy cloudy weather

22. Your favorite book: the zahir

23. The last thing you ate: i don't know what it's called.. haha!

24. Currently, your life is: perfect!

25. Your mood: uhhh... ask my girlfriend :)

26. Your best friend: is sad right now :(

27. What you are thinking about right now: july july july july july july!!!

28. Your car: ya mean my car... NEEDS to be a porsche or a black range rover!

29. What you are doing at the moment: typing and thinking

30. Your summer: my summer was awesome!

31. Your name: is short and suuuuhweet!

32. What is on your tv: it's not on

33. Last time you laughed: just a while ago

34. Last time you cried: last Saturday in the beach... :(


dear baby, don't kill me cos i was seriously trying to figure out this whole new blogger beta thingymahjig but i didn't wanna risk getting killed by you! haha! soooo.. see ya later love! I love you!

Check this.. :)

ya know how art speaks to you?
this piece did :)
funny how the girl ate all her words..
wonder what those characters mean...

Scream

silent screams--

...always

Now that shes back in the atmosphere
With drops of jupiter in her hair, hey, hey
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that theres time to change, hey, hey
Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like june, hey, hey

Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the milky way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated

Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking at yourself out there

Now that shes back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation, hey, hey
She checks out mozart while she does tae-bo
Reminds me that theres time to grow, hey, hey

Now that shes back in the atmosphere
Im afraid that she might think of me as plain ol jane
Told a story about a man who is too afraid to fly so he never did land

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back to the milky way
And tell me, did venus blow your mind
Was it everything you wanted to find
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know youre wrong
Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour phone
Conversation
The best soy latte that you ever had . . . and me

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back toward the milky way

Questions

what is it that you don't trust?
droppin' all signals...
hearing you out--
listening..
why doubt?

i don't say much
because i don't wanna say much
it's not that i don't listen
i just don't want this whole thing to 'blow up'--

please have faith in me
i need that from you--

i love you

Twinnie... :)

I know you're supposed to be tinkerbelle...
but just use the plane and get here quick
i'm loving you forever...
no matter what.
I love you S

Suddenly..

Suddenly I don't give a fuck any longer.
what paint to use
what color
how to arrange this fuckin room
what to fucking add--
what bedsheets to choose...

it's fucked
you raped it
and it no longer belongs to me.

fuck you

no one asked you to change anything--

My Answer...

If you wanna know exactly how i felt last night
lemme try and put it into words

cliche-ish
my world stopped
i didn't know what to say
what to think...
where to begin
and how to begin again
all my plans thrown into a waste bin
for a first,
i felt numb and scared.

in my whole entire life
i've never felt so lost
so alone
so scared

maybe because i've never loved anyone as equally enough...
as i do now with you--

the last thing on my mind
was losing you
and yesterday
it stared me straight in the face.

taunting me
making me doubt
making me think about whether this was right or not

i just couldn't stand being the one to hurt you

but the mind can play dirty tricks on us

i had to depend on my heart--

i knew i loved you
i knew i wanted you and only you...
i knew that it could ONLY be you
i knew that i couldn't--
i just couldn't be without you.

and so i told you
i told you that i wouldn't leave
and that even if you would
i'd still be around
no bitterness
no sign of hatred
nothing
just because

just because you are who you are
just because you're you
just because i love you and just you.

it's been you
and i've known this since way back

so forgive me for all my flaws and imperfections
i ain't perfect
but i am trying--
i know that's hard not to doubt because of my past
but you are my present
you are my present now
and pray that you will one day be my future
if you'd just let me...

you might never realize the kind of impact you've brought into my life
for a first
someone real
someone very very real to me--
someone i know that i truly love and respect
someone...
Yes, you

Do you speak the truth? Do you tell me everything, without keeping anything from me?


Yes, my sweet sweet darling

For it will always be you
and it will never end--
For whatever happens,
whatever is bound to happen to us
do know that I love you.
Completely.
For you--
All of you...
All 999 pieces of you
Whole-Heartedly...
All of Me
Every little piece of me.
All yours to keep for as long as you want
and I will always always find a way back to you.

There is no reason to doubt now, baby--
I am yours.
All yours.

I love you

So close...

I can’t sleep

A billion thoughts of you—

A billion thoughts of us…

Of what could have been.

I can’t sleep

I can’t believe how close

I can’t imagine you ever..

Gone—

But we held on, didn’t we???

Cos we’re such a good thing, you and I—

Only we know this.

Only we understand.

We both…

Us both…

Just you and I ;)

What I did today..

did this while you were at work
cos i had nothing to do at home

so yeah.
i drew this crazy picture for you :)

it's our future home on top of a tree...
like it?
:)

what do you think?

wanna come up and live with me?

Don't think... Never think--

trying to find anything that would make me forget--
anything

not anyone
not anyone else

anything that could possibly make this...
feel better

59 days left...

sleeping
waking
without you

turning to check my phone
one message from you

the world to me

Here it goes.

How does it feel to know you're everything I need
The butterflies in my stomach
They could bring me to my knees
How does it feel to know you're everything I want
I've got a hard time saying this
So I'll sing it in a song

Oh I adore the way you carry yourself
With the grace of a thousand angels overhead
I love the way the galaxy starts to melt
When we become one
When we become one
When we become one
When we become one

How does it feel
How does it feel when we get locked into a stare?
Please don't come looking for me
When I get lost in the mess of your hair
How do you feel when everything you've known
Gets thrown aside
Never fear, my dear, 'cause we have nothing left to hide

Oh I adore the way you carry yourself
With the grace of a thousand angels overhead
I love the way the galaxy starts to melt

Hold on to me girl
If you feel your grip getting loose
Just know that I'm right next to you
Hold on to me girl
If you feel your grip getting loose
Just know that I won't let you down

Well, I'm ready
Well, I'm ready
I am ready
To run away with you
Are you ready?
Are you ready?
Are you ready?
To run away with me

Pack your things we can leave today
Pack your things we can leave today
Say our goodbyes and get on the train
Say goodbye
Just you and I in the sweet unknown
We can just call each other our home

If I had to choose a way to die
It'd be with you
In a goosebump infested embrace
With my overanxious hands cupping your face
In a goosebump infested embrace
With my overanxious hands cupping your cherub face

When?

it kills me...

Live Life Love

I Live...
My Life...
For One...

My Love.

Her.

Yah know... :)

I missed you a lot today..
And i thought about you a lot today...
And i think i'm gonna think more about you tomorrow
And the next day
And the next next day
And the next next next day--

I can go on baby..
Being such a crazy woman for you...
I can be whacked
Whacked enough to prove my love

Speaking of love..

Why do people always try to prove their love?
I don't know..?
Do you?
I honestly don't know?

Because if it's there, then it's there.
And if it's not.. it's not.

It would be quite obvious anyways, don't you think? :)

But the thing is with you
I love proving my love...
And I do believe I'll never get bored doing it
Because I love loving you
And I love seeing you happy
And I love making you laugh because your laugh is damn contagious--

:)

Baby, point is...
You made me hella miss you today!

<3

You stole my damn heart baby!
So don't you dare give it back! :)

Can you relate?

"Clare: It's hard being left behind. I wait for Henry, not knowing where he is, wondering if he's okay. It's hard to be the one who stays.
I keep myself busy. Time goes faster that way.
I go to sleep alone, and wake up alone. I take walks. I work until I'm tired. I watch the wind play with the trash that's been under the snow all winter.
Everything seems simple until you think about it.

Why is love intensified by absence?

Long ago, men went to sea, and women waited for them, standing on the edge of the water, scanning the horizon for the tiny ship.
Now I wait for Henry.
He vanishes unwillingly, without warning.
I wait for him.
Each moment that I wait feels like a year, an eternity.
Each moment is as slow and transparent as glass.
Through each moment I can see infinite moments lined up, waiting.
Why has he gone where I cannot follow?"

-The Time Traveler's Wife