Silent days

staring into empty chapters
staring into space
string us back together
back together.
*sigh*
together?

these scissors that i've carried all my life--
it hurts too much.
cut cut cut
cut away the pain inside.

i need you
i don't need you
i need you
i know i need you--

fickle. fickle. fickle

cut away the pain

what the heart says
what the mind says

...

The World Without...

can i hide in the corner, close my eyes and just disappear?
can i stay here and try to persuade myself that everything will be all right?
all it takes is time.
time---

this is the waiting period.
you no longer there
me no longer there
we no longer an us.

where?

i still--

where do we go from here.
how do i start over again?
with you no longer around
how?

my friends think i'm perfectly fine.
no time to show any sign of weakness.
i'm moving...
i've got to.
even if i don't want to.
i've got to.....

One. Just One.

it's hard to explain everything--
i have no words left to say.
i'm tired and i feel restless.
i don't wanna feel.
i don't wanna breathe either.
i just wanna sit here and stay still.

is it just me or is everything suddenly in slow motion.
trying to find a reason
something to believe in.

i have nothing left
i have no one left.
i am alone.
alone again.

and it feels---
how does it feel?
it feels like i've gotta be strong again...

Yours... :)

This day has been so damn long! So nothing much. Just felt like writing :) Baby, you better watch rent cos Maureen and Joanne fight exactly the way we do minus the singing! hahaha! Anyways, nothing much babe! You know I love you! mmmmmwah!

Me and You... :)

We have to talk...
I have to tell you something
Look at me-- :)
Promise me you wont frown or sigh?

ya prrrromise???


Okaaay...


your pet's gonna be very busy this week...

very
very very busy--

think you can wait for your pet to finish her work? :)

Love lots,

your lovable pet...Muffy :)