Life's Design

one day I will design you a beautiful home like this-- just you and me with our two pet dogs. peter pan and tinkerbelle. can you imagine it?

I believe

I believe someone has to be strong
One of us at least
At least one
At least the one who wants this more
The one who wants to keep this going...

The Standards We Live In

i wish i could love you the way you love me
the way you wish i could love you
but the only way i can
is the way i do

and you don't understand
and you push me away
now it's your turn to run

i guess this is where it begins

your words, predictions become reality

'Never forget who you really belong to'

just felt like writing after a really long break. i'm home alone now thinking... thinking about her-- i always seem to miss her. she doesn't know this of course, no matter how many times i say it... no matter how many times i tell her it's true. she wants to know for sure. she wants to be sure. sure all the time. :)

i have never really been or felt so complete really-- it's rather scary to claim this. to have someone fit so perfectly into one's life... i never really thought this could exist. i never really thought she could. and now, she's mine.

Saving up :)

i have never been the type to save up--
never.
and now i find myself being too thrifty! i don't even wanna hang out any longer.
sucks.

sucks big time but i've gotta save if i wanna go SUPER shopping with my girl :)
it's gonna be sooo fun baby! going SUPER shopping!
i've been going SUPER shopping in my mind already!
know what i did today after lunch with my grandparents?
i went online, and 'shopped' at www.topshop.com

okay, maybe i didn't 'shop-shop' but i kind of did.
it felt nice.
real nice.
i picked everything i wanted and saved it in my wishlist...
sigh.
how i wish.

pathetic?
haha!
you should try it!

ray-ban vintage aviator sunglasses baby?
what do you think?

sigh.
i can't wait baby!
it's so close!
save up, save up!
i'm coming :)

Tea, Chips & Some Online Poker

last night was bad.
that, i admit.
i was wrong--
i had my pride with me again.
mr. pride.
always with me.
i gotta let him go somehow.

my girlfriend has really 'grown'
grown to be more patient and understanding.

it was sad.
i hurt her.
my words can truly pierce.
the power of words.
it must be tamed.

but the worst is over :)

we're talking...
communicating.
that's how problems are solved anyway, right?

so yeah.
we're good again.
talking about the trip, her hinting about some things i could buy for her
when i come over...

she's calling me tonight--
i'm happy.
i love listening to the sound of her voice.
makes me feel closer to her.
it's true.

long distance relationships work people!
truly they do--
in a few more days, it'll be our one year.
i can't believe it.

after everything.
my girl.
...still my girl through it all.

Fast day

it was a 'fast day' today-- if there's even such a word like it. i bummed around the house basically. played the piano for 5 minutes, debated on whether i should leave the city or stay home, found a lonesome chocolate lying on the table and ate it, talked to my cocker spaniel (because no one talks to me at home) haha! pathetic. read the newspaper. (kind of did a quick browse. i only look at the entertainment section, the business to check rates, world news, the front page and my fave... the horoscope section.) so yeah. it was quite a boring day until my dad and i took my 3 aunts out for an afternoon snack or what my girl calls it, 'tea-time'. i think 'tea-time' sounds yummier. i like tea... :) english breakfast. hmmmm... anyway, after a nice 'tea-time', my two other aunts decided to go shopping! yay! shopping! i love shopping! except i didn't bring my credit card or cash cos i thought we were just having tea. (bummer) but since it was pay-day my faaaaaaaaaavorite aunt told me i could buy whatever i wanted. Aaaaaaaaaand since i've been wanting gladiator shoes, i got a pair of gold ones! super roman gladiator shoes! awesome! i love them! haha! i don't know... (babe, don't laugh!) i'm just happy i got them! at least i can wear them over there when i come visit since your country's such a sandals and flipflops country! so that's just that-- :)