Stopped Lookin'

i've got my piano--
me and piano.
trying to play a song for her.
her favorite song.
her song for 'her'.

but yeah.
like i said, i stopped lookin'.

so basically i don't care anymore.
if she's happy...
if she's sad...

this ain't being bitter.

this is just reality.
my reality.

and as selfish as it sounds, it isn't.

because i catch myself sitting,
playing the piano
memorizing the piece
her favorite piece...

*
you know how people say they're over certain people
when in fact, they're not?

it's funny.

and crazy how we all fool ourselves to believe certain things--