Think--

Think.
Think.
Come on now-- Think!
I gotta think straight.
Gotta make this work.
'and being caught in between all you wish for and all you need'
I don't know where to turn any longer.
A plastered smile on my face.
I've mastered it.
I've gotten used to it--
It doesn't hurt to pretend any longer
It is my mask.
My protection.

I have never loved this much.

Where is she...?
My love?
Where has she gone off to?
Have you seen my love?

I think I pushed her away...
I think...
I think...

I shouldn't think.

A rush of pain--
Numb yourself
Come on.
I've done this countless times before.

Don't hurt...
Don't breathe..
Just don't--

Feelings that won't ever die--
Just you...
Just me.
Just us...

I miss you-- :,(
so so much