Where to?

you and me...
you and me...
me and you...
me and you...

fuck.
i'm an asshole.

me and you...
me and you...
you and me...
just you and me...

together...
just us...
always us...

why did i look the other way?

how could i?
why?

attention--
sometimes i crave the attention

fuck.

what an excuse...
to hurt the one you love.
to hurt the one I LOVE--

what now..?
where to?
what next?

forgiveness?
trust...?

here--
throw it in the waste bin

i made a mistake.
a big mistake.
an awful mistake.

selfish little girl--
fuckin' selfish little girl.

i deserve this.
whatever comes next.
consequences.

we're broken.
you're broken...

i'm sorry...
i'm so so sorry...

Growth

growth...
maybe i've grown a bit--
and it's silly because i can actually feel it.
i feel it inside of me.
i feel the growth around me.

haven't called my best friend in a year
and yesterday i did.
we talked...
and finally listened.

there are some things that we tend to overlook
that we tend to just take for granted

i've done my part.
and i guess i'm just through with it.

i wanna live.
start living and stop regretting.
quit being so cautious and just go with it--
quit hiding and just be deliriously happy.

and i am.
i think i am.
maybe i even believe that i am.

it's her.
she's grown too--
and her growth makes me proud she's mine.
she's gone a long way
...our relationship has too
we needed it--
"the fall"
but now we're back.
which is clearly all that matters.

Playmate :)

everyone needs a playmate :)
someone who'll cheer you up
someone who'll make your day
someone who'll take you away from bittersweet reality

she's my playmate...
my favorite playmate
my 'bestest' playmate

lets play make-believe, okay?
and pretend we live in the same country.

lets play make-believe okay?
okay...?

it's never to late to play... :)